THE LONG ROAD TO ILLNESS
After decades of chronic illness, I understand that there’s no quick fix for healing. I know at a gut level that healing can only take place with an incomprehensible, constant persistence. But why have I been motivated to make the necessary changes when so many don’t? I’ve always known that I have a purpose on this earth, although I didn’t understand the scope of it for most of my life. But I also believe that each of us who are dedicated to healing had some sort of epiphany, some random moment or occurrence that propelled us into motion. Many of the larger events in my life didn’t cause me to drastically change anything except to add to the fear that perhaps I would follow my mother’s descent into dementia at an early age. Neither did my heart bypass surgery in 2002. The physical and emotional aftermath of that surgery caused me to lose my home, my car, and the professional and financial life that I had built for myself and my daughter, but it didn’t cause me to search for answers. I was paralyzed in a way that I didn’t understand or comprehend much of the time. It was a horror that I descended into that I finally gave up trying to escape.
My epiphany was in August of 2012. I was in the hospital in order for my psychiatrist to purge me of all the psychiatric drugs I was on for chronic depression, bi-polar disorder, PTSD, anxiety disorder and panic attacks so that he could then add back in drugs that he thought would help me. What happened after a lumbar puncture exploring the possibility of MS was a total surprise to everyone. I woke the next morning with no headache after many years of migraines and new daily persistent headaches or NDPH. Until the morning of Aug. 2, 2012, I didn’t know how incredibly wonderful I could feel without a headache. Of course, I was still quite physically ill, but the euphoria of no head pain was a peek into a ‘high’ I wanted, and I began chasing that high in changing my diet, the way I interacted with the world, and getting off every drug I had been prescribed.
THE ROAD TO HEALING
It wasn’t until Feb. of 2015 that I was finally able to taper off Zoloft, the last anti-depressant I will ever take, and 15 years of levothyroxine for thyroid disease, then I was drug free. I was no longer on insulin for type 2 diabetes, gone were the cholesterol and high blood pressure meds, inhalers for asthma, and opioids for migraines and severe anxiety, medicines for heart disease, GERD/acid reflux, bi-polar disorder, chronic fatigue syndrome or CFS, fibromyalgia, and for several other disease labels that I’ve thankfully forgotten. But that wasn’t enough.
In November of 2015, I received an email from Dr. Deanna Minich, a woman that I greatly admire and founder of the Food and Spirit Practitioner Program. She was holding a book in the picture. I read that the forward was by Dr. Alejandro Junger, M.D., a high profile cardiologist and detoxification specialist who has a healing story of his own. The book Dr. Minich was holding was Medical Medium. I immediately ordered it based on her recommendation. Little did I know the impact this book that I received on November 10, 2015 would have on my life.
Medical Medium explained the decades of illness I had endured. The author, Anthony William, gave an absolutely clear accounting of not only the dozens of symptoms that so many people share which are a mystery to the medical establishment, but most importantly, he gives us answers. Within 6 weeks after starting to incorporate the supplements and food wisdom of Spirit, the ever-present, 24/7 voice outside of Anthony William’s right ear, I began to glimpse my former self. I had spurts of renewed creativity, clarity in my writing, a sense of purpose that my illnesses had robbed me of. Eventually, with the help of Evalee Grenamyer who became a close, trusted friend, I also was able to play my piano, compose and sing again. Today, I’m a Certified Food and Spirit Practitioner, a Certified Emotion Code Practitioner and am working toward my certification in Body Code. Prior to November 10, 2015, I was still struggling to get through each day of pain, exhaustion and the constant gnawing of “Why am I sick? Why can’t I think? Why can’t anyone tell me what’s wrong?” I don’t have to wonder anymore.
The road to recovery was hard, occasionally exhausting both physically and mentally, and is still challenging today. My healing continues, and I still have an everyday headache, but I am thriving and doing fulfilling work as well as playing my music again. My hope is that I can assist others, especially those who have been profoundly chronically ill, in finding a level of health in which they can again live their life and fulfill the purpose that awaits them.
“Life’s A Journey” ©2006 DEMO for Purple Garage Publishing (Words/Music/Vocal and Piano Performance by Sherry King)